With time various topics, most connected to the 'ancient ways,' will be covered. Some of these might be controversial in nature - you're most welcome to contribute.

Monday, September 16, 2013

About Seeing ...

I often 'write' about 'seeing,' because it is such an important, but very neglected, ability we have.  In Buddhist philosophy the aspect of 'right view' or right seeing is very important and the first item of the Eightfold Path.  I am lucky, as I've found a book all about 'seeing:' Separate Reality: Conversations With Don Juan, Carlos Castaneda.

"Don Juan's particular interest ... was to teach me to 'see.'  Apparently in his system of knowledge there was the possibility of making a semantic difference between 'seeing' and 'looking' as two distinct manners of perceiving.  'Looking referred to the ordinary way in which we are accustomed to perceive the world, while 'seeing' entailed a very complex process by virtue of which a man of knowledge allegedly perceives the 'essence' of the things of the world."

I can't help making a very strong connection between 'those who see' and Nature.  Nature very rarely gives us the full picture ... it leaves little tracks and trails ... and me must read all of this, connect all the dots to 'see' the full picture.  A certain level of awareness is needed to be able to do this ...

When one really 'see,' you see things that others don't see and you understand things that others don't understand.  This is not a special gift, it is just a matter of 'seeing' things as they are.  Those who really 'see' find it hard to establish long lasting relationships, as it is a permanent path of growth ... not many are willing to walk this path.  Those who see, I've found, are always very 'sensitive' ... because they refuse to develop a thick skin, as they prefer to 'feel' as well.  Being sensitive means they prefer places of Stillness ...

I love horses, because they are very sensitive beings and they prefer places of Stillness.  Horses also do 'see' ... they can pick your feelings, the way you walk and read you in split seconds.  Like those who see, horses understand the concepts of communication, trust and respect.

When I 'see' a horse I know if I stick to 'right' communication, trust and respect ... 95% of horses will also 'see' me.  Seeing certain qualities within humans have the opposite affect ... 95% of humans will fight or breach the concepts of communication, trust and respect.  They'll hide, put on different faces, tell you all the things they think you want to hear.  This is because humans carry something with them ... ego ... a creature who feeds on everything but communication, trust and respect ... these are like poison to the ego.

For those who do see, the pain caused by lack of communication, the breach of trust and the lack of respect can be very hard to take and impossible to live with.  Due to the pain, most prefer to grow a thick skin and go with the flow ... not to see and not to feel ...

A Path with Heart?

I'm reading 'The Tao of Physics' again ... read it twenty years ago.  Strange how things work ... as I've been scribbling about paths, seeing, knowing and 'things that can't be explained by words,'  for a while ...

The first chapter: Modern Physics - A Path with a Heart?  Then this quote:

"Any path is only a path, and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you ... Look at every path closely and deliberately.  Try it as many times as you think necessary.  Then ask yourself, and yourself alone, one question ... Does this path have a heart?  If it does, the path is good; if it doesn't, it is of no use.          (Carlos Castaneda, The Teachings of Don Juan"

Chapter 2: Knowing and Seeing.

'Right seeing' and 'right knowing' is part of Buddhist philosophy ... described by D.T. Suzuki as follows:

" ... for seeing is at the basis of knowing.  Knowing is impossible without seeing; all knowledge has its origin in seeing."

Chapter 3: Beyond Language.

"The contradiction so puzzling to the ordinary way of thinking comes from the fact that we have to use language to communicate our inner experience which in its very nature transcends linguistics."         (D.T. Suzuki)

For those interested, the book is an exploration of the parallels between modern physics and eastern mysticism ... my believe is that we have depths of retained memories and wisdom ... both are within and not out there.  All we have to do is to look (see) within and the 'knowing' will follow ... this is not an 'ancient art' it's something we all have ... but we forgot ...

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Little Messengers ...

The Spotted Pardalote has been on my mind for a couple of weeks now.  I first 'discovered' this little bird while taking a break hunting pigs.  I sat against a dry river bank and this little bird appeared from nowhere, nearly landing on my shoulder ... then it was gone ...


I looked around and right next to my ear I saw this little hole in the sand ... next moment out came the little bird again.  I was fascinated as I'm only familiar with 'kingfishers' and swallows in Africa that nest in holes in river banks.  This little bird is tiny, only about 90mm long with very unusual colours.  More unique is that the holes they build their nests in are sometimes only a foot off the ground.  Any snake can easily enter the nest ... so what is their secret?

During the day they are rarely seen, as they feed very high up in the trees ... but they build their nests nearly on the ground and in the ground.  I have a pair nesting in a little whole in the wall of the house ... they breed there every year.  They have absolutely no fear of humans and you can put your face right next to the hole and they'll just continue their business.  How they don't get killed by predators is a mystery to me ...

In Africa, a few little birds played a role in my life ... 'little' messengers I called them.  Here Down Under, the Blue Fairy Wren and the Pardalote often 'talk' to me.

Today, something very unusual happened.  I gathered some sand for a job , in the bush ... the shovel disturbed something that looked like a rats nest.  I immediately just knew it was the nest of a Pardalote.  I stopped and searched for the hole ... found it.  As I've already damaged the nest I started with the entrance and slowly dug open the tunnel.  I found the most amazing little nest with three little eggs in it ... one of the eggs were slightly damaged.

 I measured the eggs - 13mm long.  I candled the eggs tonight, can't see that any is fertile ...

 Entrance to the tunnel on the left.  How this little bird dig tunnels of up to a meter long, then designs a room and a nest on the other end ... mystery to me ...

I've been feeling fairly off the last few days, a few things on my mind ... some heavy decisions to be made.  The moment I hit that nest, not even sure what it was, everything opened up.  I felt sad for the Pardalote, but knew it was not going to fall into a depression, nor sit in a corner crying all day long ... it's going to continue doing what it does best ... get on with life.  This little bird ... so small ... so many predators ... so brave and so beautiful ... never stopping, always moving forward.  No time to dwell on 'what can go wrong next?'

It is difficult to explain in words ... everything that zipped through my mind at that very moment ... the things that became clear to me.  The little bird on my mind for weeks now and today I found it's secret and the little bird showed me the way ... again ...

Video Clip of the Pardalote leaving it's nest.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

The Knowing (1) ...

Every now and then I 'write' or talk about 'the Knowing' that's coming back to me.  This is actually just plain and simple intuition.  I also 'write' about 'retained memories' and 'seeing,' which again are things we all have, but sometimes choose to ignore.

Mona Lisa Schulz (MD, PhD) is a neuropsychiatrist and neuroscientist, but also a medical intuitive.  She has written a beautiful book, Awakening Intuition, which explains our intuitive abilities and also why some of us choose to ignore it.  'Bits' about intuition out of her book:

"... contrary to the prevailing myth, it doesn't exist exclusively among a small band of individuals who possess some sort of extraordinary God-given power.  Intuition is just another sense, like seeing or feeling or hearing.  Moreover, it's a sense we all share.  We are all intuitive."

"So from my earliest days, the message I received ... and I believe it's the message most of us receive, was that intuition was bad, while intelligence was good,  Intuition is suspected; intelligence is accepted.

This message was no doubt reinforced for me when my parents, concerned that I wasn't normal, took me in for a psychological evaluation at the age of seven.  Although I received a clean bill of health, it was clear to me that what I had to do was to put aside my intuition and to work very, very hard at being 'smart."

Unfortunately, this is what happens to most of us in our little 'new' world ... intuition is killed very quickly with a big and heavy stick.  We all know that this ability is very present in the animals we keep.  I have seen the power of intuition in hunter-gatherer societies, especially the Bushmen from Southern Africa.  These abilities have been written up for centuries by modern man as he encountered 'primitive' man all over the world.

This is not a special gift to a special person ... this is something we all have ... all we have to do, is to go back to who we really are ... go back to Stillness and look deep within.

Once you're very aware, intuition helps you to make decisions.  There is seeing, like I see a bird in a tree ... or there's 'seeing' ... I see the things inside you, those you choose to hide.  There's  feeling, like I feel the heat of the sun on my back ... or there's 'feeling' ... I feel the energy surrounding you, whether it's false, negative or positive. 

Intuition helps us to save time ... it was used to help us find food, water and shelter ... pointed danger out to us.  Today we waste so much time in wrong situations, whether it is work related or relationships.  We all have retained memories, which direct us and shows us who we really are and we all have intuition, which can smell a rat or help us to heal ... on the outside and on the inside ...

Once we push intuition to the side ... we are lost.  Intuition is strongly linked to our energy levels ... and our awareness ...  something most of us have little of ...

What we eat, drink and occupy ourselves with ... the things that gallops through our minds ... all affects the energy within us, the light behind the eyes, the energy surrounding us ... making us who we are at that moment ... and is what we'll attract ...

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Sawubona ...I See You ...

I often 'write' about the greeting "I see you."  This is very much integrated in greetings in Southern Africa, especially by the Zulu and Bushmen.  The Zulu greeting 'Sawubona' means 'I see you' and the response, Ngikhona' means 'I am here.'  This literally means that until you saw me, I didn't exist ... by recognising me, you brought me into existence.  In Zulu there's a saying, 'Umuntu ngumuntu nagabantu,' meaning, 'A person is a person because of other people.'

This is a personal validation from everyone you encounter, seeing them for who they are.  This 'caters' for the powerful intrinsic human need for validation.  Our Western greetings do not even come close to this, it only scratches the surface.  Our greetings are mostly automatic responses ... we don't really see or recognise another.  This greeting 'I see you' has very much to do with awareness and the present moment ...

Today I met two very special and beautiful souls, the husband is 90 years old and his wife in her early 80's.  This was a very powerful exchange of 'seeing' and 'feeling.'  This was not planned, just something I do every now and then ... turn up on a property to quote on something.

... to fully understand this, I must explain the 'seeing' factor.  One author asked the members of a Kalahari Bushmen clan if they can all recognise each others foot prints in the sand.  They looked at him in shock, because they thought all humans could do that ...  'Seeing' is something we all had ... once, it is not something special ... we've just lost it, because of a complete lack of awareness.

I always thought everyone can 'see' what I can see and 'feel' what I can feel.  It came as a shock when I realised that most cannot 'see' or even worse ... choose not to see.  The same with 'feeling.'  With both of these come and openness and a directness ... nothing to hide and nothing to be ashamed off, as we are all beings floating in the soup of humanity, humble beneath our own consciousness.  Once we loose our awareness we tend to put ourselves below or way above the 'seeing' and 'feeling' factors, because we have separated ourselves from the universal consciousness.

In an un-conscious world we 'have' to disconnect ourselves so that we don't feel and don't see ... We learn to speak another language, dance another dance, sing foreign songs and walk another's path.

'Touch me, but please not with your heart in your hand' ... which basically means if you do that then it means I have to do the same ... just too complicated and it seems like work.
'Look at me, but please don't look behind my eyes' ... a no go zone.
'Make love to my body, but please not to my soul' ... we need awareness for that.
'I love you' ... only means when I feel like it, otherwise I'll pull it back.  If you don't give me what I want ... 'love' will turn into any other four letter word.

Today I looked into the eyes of two people who understand all the concepts of communication, trust and respect ... the importance of seeing and feeling.  The last few years I kept to the Shadows of Unawareness, I did cut most of the 'seeing' and 'feeling' out.  What followed is very difficult to describe, but I'll try ...

I sat in a very old traditional kitchen with an old wooden stove ... two pairs of the bluest piercing eyes looking at me across a solid wooden table ... no coldness there, just the warmth of the kitchen and the warm Light behind their eyes.  Suddenly there was a connection, because I had no urge to hide the Shadows of my Soul ... it felt as if one hell of a wave hit my soul with a blast ... it felt very clean.  There was an energy I could feel so clearly and I could see it and feel within them ...

Much later, after we've fixed the world I shook the man's hand and this same jolt hit me between the eyes ... it was very emotional, within him and myself.  On the way home I was flooded with a mix of emotions of 'feeling' and 'seeing' - I could sense everything they've been through and all the Shadows within my Soul, I suddenly could 'see' clearly ...

I'm not a person that cries ... crying came very late for me in life, only when I reached my middle thirties and after I've met a beautiful soul ... the One that taught me to cry ...  I had to pull off the road, because I was suddenly overwhelmed by absolute beauty of Life and I've been swimming in it all day long.

Something happened to me on the way back from up North ... the beginning of a Path, something I cannot neglect anymore ... just something I need to do.  The moment I realised this, the Wild One left me ...

What I call the Knowing is slowly coming back to me and this time I'll never hide it again, I'll never be ashamed of it again.  I'll never teach myself again not to look to deep into peoples eyes, because they get upset about it.  I didn't get upset today, I welcomed it ... because if felt right.  If people really See You, it's a beautiful thing ... if you don't like it, don't understand it, don't feel comfortable with it ... look deep within and you'll find your own beauty ... because others Do see it, you must just recognise that ...

This might all sound strange, but I've experienced the Power of Consciousness on various levels.  I've seen it within other people and how a simple touch with awareness can change someone's life.  I've also experienced how any seeing or touching with awareness can scare the hell out of somebody ... because they prefer the Shadows with all the dust balls.  I'm also aware of the cruelty the lack of awareness can cause - 'I Don't See You ... Therefore You Don't Exist.'  This was one of the cruellest methods of exclusion and punishment members of a hunter-gatherer clan/tribe could inflict on a single person ... yet, we do this with each other on a daily basis.

The lack of awareness in any relationship is a slow method of killing souls ... yet it is also the way of looking deep within yourself to find your own consciousness.  You can only find other conscious people if you can 'see' and  'feel.'

Two beautiful souls, who I can't thank enough for 'seeing' me ... casting light onto the Shadows of my Soul ...

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Love ... a Creative Activity ...

 "The active character of love is primarily giving, not receiving ..."

 Perhaps one of the most important intellectual abilities that made the evolution of science and art possible is creativity. Science and art are, however, not the only creative aspects of human culture ... the entire lives of hunter-gatherers in the Kalahari Desert were steeped in creative thinking.

Love, for example, is also a creative activity and plays a fundamental role in social relations. A characteristic feature of hunter-gatherer societies was the egalitarian sharing of food. What was perhaps most significant was that hunters and gatherers did not all contribute the same amount of food. The best hunters contributed much more meat than the poorest hunters. Furthermore, women provided more plant foods than men provided meat, except in the higher latitudes. This means that the better hunters contributed more meat than they expected to receive in return, while women provided more plant food than the meat they expected to receive in return, especially the women who were married to the less successful hunters. For egalitarian sharing to have been possible, the most successful hunters and gatherers had to have the capacity to give more than they expected to receive in return.


The active character of love is primarily giving, not receiving.  Love was therefore a necessity in hunter-gatherer subsistence, and may well have originated with the evolution of hunter-gatherer societies.


The Art of Tracking - The Origin of Science (Louis Liebenberg)

Today it is seen as normal to hook a single person with 'love' ... as in romantic love.  Very soon the fire stop burning, because one can only look for 'outward' love for so long.  Loving kindness goes a long way, because it's a pure out flow of love from the inside, continuously generated within due to a true connection/awareness/consciousness with universal loving kindness ... a fire that can never stop burning ...

I really enjoy this book, as the 'art of tracking' has such a strong connection to awareness/consciousness, which leads to creativity ... loving kindness ... higher levels of consciousness ...

Monday, September 2, 2013

Being 'Spoor' Conscious ...

I'm busy reading, 'The Art of Tracking - The Origin of Science,' by Louis Liebenberg.  The following paragraph caught my eye ... I became very much aware of the 'spoor' people leave all over their own 'consciousness':

Perhaps an equally important factor in nature conservation is the development of a general awareness of wildlife among the general public. Ignorance by the public at large may well he the most dangerous threat to the survival of many species in the face of "advancement" and "progress". Even keen nature lovers are often unaware of the wealth of animal life around them, simply because most animals are rarely seen. I once encountered a group of about a dozen hikers who walked right over a perfectly clear leopard spoor. Not one of them noticed it, simply because they were not "spoor conscious". To them the leopard simply did not exist. Yet to find a fresh leopard spoor in the wilderness adds an exciting new dimension to hiking.  Such a wilderness may appear desolate to the untrained eye, hut if you are at least "spoor conscious·· it will he full of the signs of wildlife. Even if you never see the animals, the knowledge that they are there is enough.  By reconstructing their movements from their footprints, you may he able to visualise the animals and in your imagination actually "see" them. In this way a whole story may unfold, a story of what happened when no one was looking.

If you are familiar with the art of tracking, then you'll know and understand that total awareness is necessary.  Liebenberg describes it as follows:

According to a popular misconception, nature is "like an open book" to the expert tracker and such an expert needs only enough skill to "read everything that is written in the sand". A more appropriate analogy would be that the expert tracker must be able to "read between the lines". Trackers themselves cannot read everything in the sand. Rather, they must be able to read into the sand. To interpret tracks and signs trackers must project themselves into the position of the animal in order to create a hypothetical explanation of what the animal was doing. Tracking is not strictly empirical, since it also involves the tracker's imagination. Generally speaking, ore may argue that science is not only a product of objective observation of the world through sense perception. It is also a product of the human imagination.  A creative hypothesis is not found or discovered in the outside world, it comes from within the human mind.

This is exactly the reason why the Bushman and the Australian Aboriginal, actually any hunter-gatherer or any tracker worth his salt are able to read people so well.  You can't hide anything ...



Whatever you do, think or hide deep within ... left a spoor over your consciousness.  Depending on the skill of the 'tracker,' he or she can pick things up that you might not be able to see or feel ... because you're not that aware or conscious yourself.

In a world where most of us have lost the ancient skills, we are now safe to hide our little souls and secrets ... because their are very few trackers that can read the spoor ...

I have been in relationships where a lot of doors were shut, because the other person lives in a world without openness and honesty ... but, the spoor is clear for those who can read it, read between the lines and construct the full picture.

In the presence of a 'tracker' these people soon feel very uncomfortable and they run around trying to shut doors, kick dust over evidence and jump from rock to rock ... so that you can't read the markings on their consciousness.  They can see in your eyes, what you see, they can feel how the picture forms and they'll run like rabbits to hide from you ...

Trackers are hunters and the spoor is not the only things they see, they can also sense the levels of energy in those they track ... they can pick a weakness and they can read between the lines and they can construct the full picture.

Every thought that flutters through your mind affects your energy levels ... so does every unconscious act leave a blood trail across your own consciousness ... to be picked up by those who can read all the signs.

Due to the highest levels of unconsciousness every known by mankind, people now get away with things, because they can hide ... but those who can read the spoor can still see them for what they are.  This skill is deeply connected to consciousness ...

There is nothing as pathetic and destructive as a dishonest human being looking you straight in the eye, feeling very confident that you can't see the blood trails of dishonesty they've left.  They live with a lie which is impossible to hide.  They'll walk past things of beauty, not recognising it ... as they are so busy covering up their own dirty tracks ...